Anyone who knows me, knows that I can talk the hind legs off an elephant once I get going on something I’m passionate about. When I’m in this way, I don’t need to breathe, I can just go on and on. I have a lot to say, and a lot of opinions. So then, why is this blog mostly empty?

There are a number potential answers to that question, or excuses perhaps.

Firstly, Writing is not speaking. Many people I read seem to have the magic power of typing as fast as they can talk, and can easily roll off reams of text with seemingly little thought. Although I’m pretty good composing my thoughts verbally, when it comes to getting the words down I find that I’m somewhat dyslexic. I can’t get a whole sentence down without stopping halfway though and wondering what the consequences of that particular thought are, and suddenly I’m overwhelmed by many parallel ideas, all of which I want to write down but each of which take the conversation in a slightly different and non-compatible direction. I liken this to a quantum mechanical many-world view; my brain always seems to offer me a superposition of ideas, which makes it difficult to get them down in a linear sense. Speaking offers the chance of a correction and clarification mid-sentence that writing doesn’t.

Secondly, I prefer an intimate audience. I much prefer chatting to one or two close friends, than expounding on an idea to an anonymous audience. Blogging scares the hell out of me – what if I’m wrong about what I’m saying? What if I come across as pretentious? I do have ideas which I think are revolutionary and world-changing, but I know that they are not developed enough yet to influence the people whom need influencing to make those changes. I don’t want to come across as an idiot, and blow any opportunity that might present itself to be taken seriously. On the other hand, I am totally convinced that I’m worth listening too, and I’m not going to get anywhere unless I can talk to the world eloquently enough.

Finally (not really, but for the sake of finishing this post), I’m completely mad. Or so I’m told. My mental circuits do not fire in the conventional way. It took me many years to recognise this, and it explains a lot. Of course it could also be due to some interesting parenting, or childhood rebellion. Either way, I favour the path less trodden, and do not accept conventional wisdom without kicking and screaming. At least, not until I’ve proven it for myself. This usually means that most of what I talk about sounds like complete gibberish to most people, or at least gives them a headache. Now, who wants to sound like a complete nut case? Especially when the Internet contains most people!

Anyway, excuses aside. The main reason I’ve not been talking here so much, is that I didn’t have a coherent theme to express myself through. My blog was cast in my name (http://www.josef-k.net/), and that left me little room to manoeuvre for anything other than personal commentary. What I really want to express, however, is much more than that. Breathtakingly more (Note to self, remember to breathe!). To do that I need a raison d’être, an ontology to operate from, a central genus to weave my discourse around.

So I’ve reinvented myself, and I’m very excited about it. From hence forth this blog shall be known as ‘The thoughts of a Reality Hacker‘, because upon reflection, that’s what I am.